A Late Night Adventure

The other night, I couldn't sleep (after the Savvy Blogging party on Twitter on Thursday night), so I got up and spent some time with my best friend...

Can't sleep tonight. Too much running through my brain at the moment. Nothing that's of any importance, or relevance even, but it's running amuck nonetheless. (Is that how you spell "amuck"?) I laid in bed for over an hour just tossing and turning, trying my best not to wake up J, though I'm not sure how well I succeeded with that - I'll have to ask him in the morning. (He usually manages to sleep through it.)

I wish I knew why I'm so fidgety today. Even earlier, I felt the need to do something creative, so I got out Jenny's crayons and started coloring. I think I'm going stir crazy - no real purpose or task(s) to complete. I need something to do to occupy my mind and my time.

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I just spent 45 minutes filling 9 pages in my notebook with my oozing brain clutter, and none of it is able to be converted to a blog post. The nature of the thoughts are such that I can't share them with the world. Actually, with the exception of God (& myself, obviously), nobody will probably ever be privy to them.

Yet, without knowing what they are, if you think about it, would you pray with me in regards to them? I know that's a vague prayer request, but I could use the support in putting them at the feet of my Heavenly Father (and leaving them there). Thanks!

It's times like these when I want to be completely vulnerable and shed my heart wide open to the unsuspecting world, and yet I know that too many people could possibly be negatively affected by my doing so.

I do wish, though, that I had somebody (flesh and blood) to share my struggles with. Somebody who could give me perspective from an objective point of view. Somebody far enough removed from my life to help me see what's really going on - to make sense of it all for me.


I wish that this blog could be that for me - that you, the readers, could offer me that objective perspective. But I know too many of you personally, and you are too involved in my life.


Thus, what I want to share, I shouldn't. And I won't. Not here.  This needs to be a safe place for both you & me.


And on that note... is there anything I can pray about for you?