It's All About ME!! I mean... It's NOT About Me!

I have had myself down and out for almost a week. Life was getting so difficult, I was ready to just give up and make a run for it. My marriage felt like it was falling apart, I couldn't get anything done during the day, I was sick and felt like crap, my kids wouldn't listen to me. Life was kicking and screaming at me and all I wanted to do was run!

I found myself laying in bed Friday night going over all the crappyness that had happened that day (and yes, some of the crappyness from Friday was legit), when it dawned on me. My focus was on ME. Not on my husband, not on my family, and most definitely not on GOD! The more I realized this, the clearer it all became to me. Yeah, my life isn't perfect (far from it), but it doesn't have to be. In fact, it never will be.

Life is full of bumps and bruises, but God is still in control. He lets us go through "crappyness" to grow us in our understanding of our need for dependance on HIM! And He's there to mend the cut and scrapes, to heal our brokenness, and to put the pieces of our lives back together in the way He meant for them to be.

I found myself in desperate need of the wake-up call I had just gotten. "Wake-up, Ashley! It's NOT about you. It's about GOD!"

Can I tell you how much better the past couple of days have gone since I had this wake-up call? The crappyness continues on a daily basis (and will continue until we die or Christ comes back), but I'm less focused on it and more focused on what God has called me to do - be the best wife and mommy I can be, for HIS glory!

Q4U: What wake-up call have you gotten recently? How's your vision/focus doing? Are you 20/20 on HIM? Or are you like me, struggling to fix your eyes on the prize?